Jim Best is the author of “Haint Seen Nothin’,” which appeared in 4LPH4NUM3R1C2.0 Episode 5 on 10 October 2025.

  • Do you use a pseudonym? Why or why not?                                          
    I don’t. I have toyed with the idea in the past, but the unvarnished truth is I couldn’t abide the idea of not getting credit for my work and using a pseudonym feels too much like giving it to someone else. That said I have published spicier stuff with my initials instead of my first name.

    What first motivated you to write/create art?
    My mother was a big reader. She instilled a love of true crime and horror in me. Fantasy and science fiction I got from my older brother. I read and I watched and I started to think it would be fun to make my own stories up.

    If you could have any writer/artist, living or dead, as a mentor, who would you choose?
    This is tough. It’s absurdly cliche but I might say Stephen King. His book On Writing is one of greatest writing handbooks I have ever read and probably the most influential one on my writing habits. So I I can only imagine the idea of studying at the feet of the master.

    Is there a specific period of history whose art or writing you admire? Why?
    I am history buff so I like stuff from all over, but I would probably say Victorian/Early Edwardian period, around the mid 1800s to the early 1900s. Your Stokers, your Dickenses, your Doyles. I love their optimism, their almost naive trust in technology and the future. 

    Is there one part of your creation process that’s harder for you?
    Getting started. Once I sit down and start it’s easy. But the part of sitting down and starting when I could always do it after one more episode of a show, or after one podcast, or after I’ve cleaned my room, done the dishes and folded the laundry, that’s the biggest hurdle.

    Talk about the moment you knew you wanted to be a creator.
    I honestly can’t recall a time when I wasn’t thinking of being a writer. But I think the moment I knew “ok, this is my thing”, is when I was about sixteen and I had given my dad something to read. My mom told me later that as he was reading it he said “the kid can write.” He’s never been the most emotionally expressive guy with his praise, so that was the single biggest compliment about my writing I have ever gotten.

    Do you have a piece that you created early in your career that makes you cringe? Will you ever go back and fix it so it can be submitted somewhere?
    Oh god yes. I went though an erotic fan fiction phase. I am not a prude by any means long shot, but thinking of my teenage self writing what I did makes me blush. No, I won’t be going back anytime soon.

    What is your biggest creative doubt?
    Imposter syndrome is a hell of thing. Every time I send a story to a publisher I think “am I just embarrassing myself? Are they gonna say, ‘oh my god, he really thought this was worth our time?’”

    What piece of creative advice have you received that sounded good, but was ultimately not useful to you?
    In the aforementioned On Writing by SK, he talks about the need to read and or write every single day for at least two or three hours a day if you want to be a writer. I tried. I realized it didn’t work for me. It’s fantastic advice if you have the time attention for it, but as a dad of two small kids with a full time job, and ADHD it was untenable. Worse, it took away the joy of the act and made it feel like homework. I decided to cut myself a break and devote one a week to writing, one day to edits, the others to outlining and reading.

Marie Brennan is the author of “The Great Undoing” which appeared in 4LPH4NUM3R1C2.0 Episode 8 on 25 November 2025.

  • Do you use a pseudonym? Why or why not? 
    My legal name is Bryn Neuenschwander. I knew at the age of nine that I didn't want to publish under that name: people constantly mistake my given name for Bryan and then they think I'm a guy, and as for my surname . . . yeah. Using a pseudonym was always the plan.

    (And since people often ask: at conventions or in other public, professional contexts, I prefer to go by Marie. That's the name I want people to remember, after all.)

    What first motivated you to write/create art?
    I think it was just "being a kid." Many kids like to make up stories; it seems to be a common feature of the child brain. Most people stop eventually, though, and I simply didn't: kept on going through junior high, high school, college, and beyond. I really didn't have any loftier motivation beyond "whee, this is fun!"

    Talk about the moment you knew you wanted to be a creator. 
    I had discovered the works of Diana Wynne Jones and got to her novel Fire and Hemlock, in which the two main characters are writing a story together, sending bits of it back and forth to each other. I'd always been making up stories in my head, but it was the first time I thought about them being something I might want other people to enjoy. I remember putting that book and thinking, "I want to be a writer."

    Do you have a piece that you created early in your career that makes you cringe? Will you ever go back and fix it so it can be submitted somewhere?
    "Cringe" I think is mostly the wrong word, because you shouldn't be embarrassed by the fact that you've grown as an artist. It would be far worse not to grow! That having been said, of course I have older pieces that aren't up to my current standards, and one of them I would say makes me cringe, because its flaw is not only that it's a weak story. It's about a homeless woman, and I wrote it at an early stage before "hey, maybe I should do research on things" had really crossed my mind, so it is based entirely on my college-aged self making up things about what homelessness might be like. That's . . . really not great. I'm glad it never sold -- and no, I'm not going to revise it, because I don't think there's enough meat on the bone to make it worthwhile. I have plenty of newer, better ideas that deserve that time and attention.

    But I have done that kind of circling back before! My story "Oh, My Cursed Daughter"(https://www.swantower.com/writing/oh-my-cursed-daughter/) is an entirely new version of a story I originally wrote in 2004. I failed to sell it then, and eventually I realized my plot could be read in a way I didn't intend, so I was fine with trunking it. I still wanted to write something based on the folksong behind it, though, and one day in 2022 I had an epiphany about a different way to approach the concept. I'm much happier with the version I ended up selling!

    What piece of creative advice have you received that sounded good, but was ultimately not useful to you?
    Probably the notion that you should outline stories, especially novels, before you write them. For some people, that's great advice! Maybe even the secret key that unlocks forward progress for them, when they were floundering aimlessly before! But for me, it straight-up does not work. I tried outlining a novel precisely once; what I wrote bore no resemblance to the outline and was such a disaster to boot, I didn't even try to revise it. Just chucked the draft and started over with a white-page rewrite of the concept. I can't say for sure that the outline had anything to do with my terrible results -- it was also the one time in my life I've tried to take a theme-first approach to a novel, which I've since learned causes me to write dreadfully preachy and flat fiction -- but it certainly didn't give me any reason to love the process. I have much more fun, and produce more interesting stories, when I let myself explore my characters and my plot as I go.

    You’re stranded on a desert island - what three creative tools do you want with you? 
    Because I am a smartass, my response is "a solar-powered water desalinator, an emergency beacon, and a book to read while I wait to be rescued." Those don't sound like creative tools? Well, I'm sure I would not be very creative if I were dying of dehydration . . . But really, I've figured out that my own process is heavily dependent on inputs. If I were isolated on this hypothetical island, then even if my physical needs were magically taken care of, the mental well would dry up. I need to read a lot, I need to watch and play things, I need to travel, if I'm going to come up with anything interesting to say.

Paul Burgess is the author of “One of the Good Ones,” which appeared in 4LPH4NUM3R1C2.0 Episode 5 on 10 October 2025.

  • Do you have a piece that you created early in your career that makes you cringe? Will you ever go back and fix it so it can be submitted somewhere?
    I've found some things to like in some of my early humorous work, but I cringe when reading most of my early attempts at serious, reflective, or somber work. While I've revised some of the early pieces, others have provided a useful idea or image, and some have even inspired better works written from a more mature perspective.

    One of my favorite examples is an ekphrastic poem I wrote years ago about Titian's "Flaying of Marsyas", a painting based on a myth in which Apollo flays a musician alive at the end of a musical competition between the two. The original poem felt a little stiff and archaic, and the interpretation I gave the poem was almost embarrassingly traditional and unreflective. Earlier this year, I went back and read that poem and realized that my worldview had changed enough to completely alter my interpretation of the painting and the myth it depicts; while keeping some of the original imagery, I rewrote most of the poem in more contemporary language and transformed my stuffy piece about hubris into a celebration of the artist and a condemnation of the pettiness sometimes shown by those in power. 

    Having the revised piece published in the Ekphrastic Review has been an honor and has inspired me to think about what I could do with some of my other older work. 

    Is there a specific period of history whose art or writing you admire? Why? 
    My inspirations and interests are so scattered that answering this kind of question can be difficult, but the Renaissance, with its reflowering of the classical culture I love and its explosion of exciting thought in nearly every area of inquiry, has always held a special place for me. The Renaissance is, after all, the era of Montaigne, Shakespeare, Cervantes, Bacon, Bosch, and Bruegel; far from the dry and stiff age some might imagine, it was a time of art and thought so bold and ambitious that they often threatened to devolve into beautiful chaos—right before sticking the landing with unexpected grace.

    Is there one part of your creation process that’s harder for you? 
    Deciding how long to make a piece can be really difficult. I do not want to make the ending feel too abrupt or give the impression that I have ran out of steam, but I am just as worried about dragging on too long with an idea that has worn out its welcome. I generally feel more comfortable working in shorter forms but would like to gain more confidence creating some longer pieces too. 

    What is your biggest creative doubt?  
    I'm never really sure when an idea or project I'm passionate about will be interesting to others. I write about the sometimes strange things I'm interested in and never set out to write something just because I think it will appeal to a lot of people. Nevertheless, I still want to connect with people who would find entertainment, beauty, insight, or any other sort of value in my work. In other words, I really want to create work that means something to people, but I know that I can only do that when I'm writing pieces that are meaningful to me too; I don't know that I'm always a good judge of when something will speak to others. 

    If you could have any writer/artist, living or dead, as a mentor, who would you choose? 
    It's hard to choose between David Bowie, Richard Thompson, Jorge Luis Borges, and Guillermo del Toro, but I might go with del Toro because it's always inspiring to hear him talk about his art, he seems like the rare genius who could give better advice than "just be a hardworking genius like me", and he's great at recognizing and articulating what makes others brilliant. (It's still awfully hard to choose one among the names I've mentioned. I especially love artists who masterfully blend traditional and modern or experimental elements.)

    What first motivated you to write/create art?
    Works of art have so often made me think about things from different perspectives, enriched my life, given me wisdom or strength, or just made me feel like I wasn't completely alone in the world. The feeling that other artists have given me is the kind of feeling I have wanted to give others. I had found myself thinking many times that I would love to capture certain thoughts as effectively as this or that piece does and that I would love to create something that makes people feel the way this or that work does. 

    More recently, I have also been inspired by the desire to turn thoughts, fleeting impressions, and insights into something resembling artifacts or crafts that I can revisit, reflect on, and feel proud of.

T Cruz is the author of “Steeped in Plastic,” which appeared in 4LPH4NUM3R1C2.0 Episode 6 on 25 October 2025.

  • Do you use a pseudonym? Why or why not?
    I don't - anymore! Now that I am out as nonbinary, I feel more comfortable using my chosen name

    If you could have any writer/artist, living or dead, as a mentor, who would you choose?
    This is such a tough question, but I think I have to choose 2, if I can. Mary Oliver and James Baldwin. If you know, you know.

    Is there one part of your creation process that’s harder for you?
    The hardest part of the writing process for me is editing. Sometimes I write a poem that feels unfinished, but what I've learned is that some poems will never have a complete ending and are meant to be ambiguous. 

    Talk about the moment you knew you wanted to be a creator.
    I've known that I wanted to create my entire life, it just took years for me to embrace this part of myself. I grew up being told that writing should not be anything more than a hobby in life. In high school, around the same time that I came out, I began writing more intentionally, and from there I knew that's what I would one day dedicate my life to. 

    Do you have a piece that you created early in your career that makes you cringe? Will you ever go back and fix it so it can be submitted somewhere?
    Oh absolutely! Most of my first ever pieces are hard for me to look back on, however, they serve as the perfect foundation for new work. I will probably try to rework or rewrite all of them at some point, as a reminder that I started somewhere and left things unsaid. 

    What is your biggest creative doubt? 
    I am my own worst critic, so I usually doubt whether or not my work is urgent or necessary right now. I mostly write within the intersection of race, religion, and gender, so of course, my work is imperative. 

Taylor Carrington is the author of “Karma,” which appeared in 4LPH4NUM3R1C2.0 Episode 6 on 25 October 2025.

  • What first motivated you to write/create art?
    What first motivated me was the outlet that creating gave me. It allowed me a way to voice the ideas that are so firmly trapped in my head that I've always wanted to share with everyone.

    If you could have any writer/artist, living or dead, as a mentor, who would you choose?  
    Oscar Wilde comes to mind for me. The Picture of Dorian Grey is one of my favorite stories, and I am still charmed regularly by his wit and candor. He reminds me of a more modern Voltaire, unafraid to poke the metaphorical bear of society and see what happens. I feel I would gain a lot learning how to more efficiently elicit that energy in my own works.

    Is there a specific period of history whose art or writing you admire? Why?
    I have always admired the Victorian/Edwardian artistic expression the most. The honest and sharp morbidity was something that resonated with my own anxious introspections.

    Is there one part of your creation process that’s harder for you?  
    I think that the hardest part of creating for me is continuing once I've started. Sometimes I can immediately have something on my mind to put to paper, but if I get a majority of it out onto the paper, my brain has a hard time continuing. It's like it thinks "you did it, it's out of your head, what's there left to do?" It's something that has gotten easier to do over time however!

    Talk about the moment you knew you wanted to be a creator.  
    I was sitting in one of my classes years ago, and my thoughts wandered as I sat through an arduous chemistry class. I asked myself: "Why don't I start writing, or creating?" It was a simple enough question, but something that I had never thought of for myself. I guess it's a lot to do with imposter syndrome and thinking I had to have been born a hundred years ago to write what I wanted to write. But in and around that moment, I realized none of that mattered, and all that mattered was practicing the craft and seeing if I could convey my internal ideas adequately through the medium. That's when I started writing little poems about all of the weird and unique feelings I felt but couldn't explain, and the rest is history I guess!

    Do you have a piece that you created early in your career that makes you cringe? Will you ever go back and fix it so it can be submitted somewhere?
    Oh most assuredly! Those "little poems" I wrote years and years ago? Cheap facsimiles of what I would read in my English classes and the vague understandings of the poetic form. But the thing is, is that while they are objectively bad, the ideas and the concepts wrapped within them are not. They have ideas, thoughts, contexts, and opinions of a, at the time, confused and naive person taking their first steps to understanding themselves. And because of that, no matter how cringe they might sound, there's a genuine emotion or idea behind it that I want to unearth for people. I think there's a reality where I go and work on some of these older works. The biggest issue is finding where I've put a few of them in my time since writing them. A lot of them were digital and I've swapped around devices since that time.

    What is your biggest creative doubt?  
    My biggest doubt is being able to truly feel that what I write can be considered art, and myself an artist. It's very hard for me to justify that to myself, but I'm working towards that each day by continuing to work on my craft and sharing my work with the world.

Angelica Esquivel is the author of “collaboration” which appeared in 4LPH4NUM3R1C2.0 Episode 4 on 25 September 2025.

  • Do you use a pseudonym? Why or why not?
    I don’t use a pseudonym, because I feel that my writing and art are an integral part of my identity, and to use a pseudonym would be a false attempt to compartmentalize or distance myself from my own work. I want to stand by the things I put out into the world. That being said, if I ever wrote erotica, I would likely use a pseudonym, just so my family doesn’t get traumatized by it.

    What first motivated you to write/create art?
    I’ve been creating since I was a little kid, so I think it was probably a combination of being inspired by my favorite kids books as well as feeling like I have something unique to add to the conversation due to my experiences a nerdy Latina in rural Ohio. 

    If you could have any writer/artist as a mentor, who would you choose?
    Matsuo Basho

    Is there one part of your creation process that’s harder for you?
    I think I have a bad habit of rushing to an ending, when really, some poems need to be sat with and lived with for years before they’re ready. So, letting things breathe and exist in a between state is the hardest part for me. 

    What is your biggest creative doubt?
    My biggest creative doubt is about my ability to see a long-form project to completion, namely, my novel-in-verse that I’m currently working on. I think I can complete it, but whether I can complete it in such a way that lives up to my original creative vision is a whole different matter. 

    What piece of creative advice have you received that sounded good, but was ultimately not useful to you?
    I think the advice to just keep writing is sometimes helpful, but it’s also just as helpful to know when it’s time to put down the pen and immerse myself in the world in different ways. Sometimes writing is a shield that separates me from others, so I need to remember to knock that wall down from time to time, lest I become a writer who just writes about writing with other writers.

    You’re stranded on a desert island, what three creative tools do you want with you?
    I’d like a sharp chisel, a hammer, and fresh clay so I can carve pictograms and words into caves and rocks and build little monuments and statues.

Stephaniya Elizabeth George is the author of “Reflections and other wounds” which appeared in 4LPH4NUM3R1C2.0 Episode 7 on 10 November 2025.

  • Do you use a pseudonym? Why or why not? 
    No. Finding a catchy and suitable name wasn't easy so eventually I got used to signing my work with my own name. 

    What first motivated you to write/create art?
    I was first motivated to write because it gave me a way to make sense of what I thought and felt.

    If you could have any writer/artist, living or dead, as a mentor, who would you choose? 
    Sylvia Plath. If I want emotional intensity in my work then I want the best to lead me.

    Is there one part of your creation process that’s harder for you? 
    Trying not to reuse phrases and sentences from previous works. It's as if it robs the freshness from the piece and sometimes I feel like a parrot.

    Do you have a piece that you created early in your career that makes you cringe? Will you ever go back and fix it so it can be submitted somewhere?
    Yes. No. It will remain like that till the end of time. 

    What piece of creative advice have you received that sounded good, but was ultimately not useful to you?
    “Write every day “. Tried it. Turns out I don't do well with forcing myself to write.

    You’re stranded on a desert island - what three creative tools do you want with you? 
    A waterproof notebook, pen and crayons.

Dean Robert Holmes is the author of “Where Will You Wind Up?” which appeared in 4LPH4NUM3R1C2.0 Episode 2 on 25 August 2025.

  • Do you use a pseudonym? Why or why not? 
    No, I use my real name because, as a trans person, I fought for what I want to be called. I remember scrawling my prospective name over and over, aching for the day it would be true. So to see it on documents and publications now brings me great joy. And to have an author website that bears the name I longed for gives me a sense of not only pride, but purpose. Because I write explicit romance, I did consider the whole "What if my family finds out?" thing. But ultimately, we're estranged, and I want credit for my creativity. So screw 'em

    What first motivated you to write/create art?
    As far back as I can remember, I've lived in my own mind. A vivid and detailed world where I can be beautiful, brave, or even bad. Eventually, my daydreams weren't content with their cages, and that world spilled onto the page. I struggle with schizoaffective disorder, and I've discovered that by trapping the specters in my skull on paper, I have control over them instead of the other way around.

    If you could have any writer/artist, living or dead, as a mentor, who would you choose? 
    It's a tie between Bill Hader and Conan O'Brien. Like many alphabet p*rn purveyors, I got my start in the wonderful world of fan fiction. By writing stories about those sweet and silly comedy fellows, I've made friends all over the world and met my lovely fiancée, Mae, whom I proposed to before seeing Bill Hader live in Los Angeles at the Vulture Festival. Conan even read one of my stories on his celebrated podcast, Conan O'Brien Needs a Friend. So to study under one of those brilliant and beautiful men would be a dream come true.

    Is there one part of your creation process that’s harder for you? 
    Editing. I love to sit down and pour out a story. But going back and fixing everything is tedious and inevitably sparks my irritability. Editing the work of others, however, makes me feel useful, and I loved working as a writing tutor in college.

    Talk about the moment you knew you wanted to be a creator. 
    I attended an arts-based middle school, and one of my focuses was dance. One day, the teacher asked us to write a list of ideas we had for future performances/what we would like to spend more time on in class. I wrote things like, "Let's pretend one of our limbs is possessed and the rest of our body is forced to follow along." So when the teacher gathered our papers and other kids had listed things like "more pop music" and "faster routines," I felt foolish.

    Until the teacher spoke to us the next day. She said, "Dean is the only one who gave me any useful suggestions." 

    Being singled out was embarrassing, but that was the first time I realized that the unique way my brain works could be an advantage rather than a hindrance. 

    What is your biggest creative doubt? 
    I doubt my ability to write believable dialogue. I have autism and, due to that and paranoia from the psychosis, I often go days or weeks without talking aloud to another person. For that reason, I worry that my written conversations sound false or hollow. But I will always work hard to improve and believe strongly in the motto, "Fail, then fail better."

Elle Hurley is the author of “Never Say Die,” which appeared in 4LPH4NUM3R1C2.0 Episode 3 on 10 September 2025.

  • What first motivated you to write/create art?
    I've been writing since I was 6 years old. At that age, reading other people's writing inspired me most. Writing became an extension of that line of thought, and eventually, that led me to creating my own worlds. But it all came from the same place: the desire to belong, to inhabit worlds where anything was possible.

    If you could have any writer/artist, living or dead, as a mentor, who would you choose?
    David Lynch, hands down. Nobody does atmosphere like he does. Plus, he always had an eye for a good suit.

    Is there one part of your creation process that’s harder for you
    Nailing the feel of a location. I want readers to be fully grounded before I push them into the batshit weirdness of my stories. I’m very particular about the settings in my work, so creating the perfect atmosphere takes more effort than anything else.

    Do you have a piece that you created early in your career that makes you cringe? Will you ever go back and fix it so it can be submitted somewhere?
    Honestly? No. I'm proud of everything I've put into the world now whether or not I identify with it anymore. I do sometimes feel a little sad about projects I tried to force when they weren’t working — there’s one young adult book that comes to mind - but even those don’t make me cringe. Every project has taught me something and helped me grow as a writer.

    What is your biggest creative doubt?  
    That my work is too strange to be truly enjoyed. Maybe it’s less a doubt than a secret belief.

    What piece of creative advice have you received that sounded good, but was ultimately not useful to you?
    "Write every day!" I've heard this a million times, and I couldn't disagree more. Forcing yourself to create when you aren't feeling creative makes art into work. My version of that is: do something worth writing about every day. Some days, living is more important than writing. Experiencing life gives you the material to write from. For me, expanding my worldview in some way is far more valuable than carving out time every day to write when my mind isn’t in it.

Hannan Khan is the author of “Boy Bleeds Bloodline,” which appeared in 4LPH4NUM3R1C2.0 Episode 8 on 25 November 2025.

  • Do you use a pseudonym? Why or why not? 
    No, I don’t use a pseudonym. My name already feels like a signature — vulnerable & tethered to every bruise & bloom my work cradles. A pseudonym would be like wearing a veil while kissing fire; it keeps you safe but you miss the scorch. I want my readers to know the being behind the words, to sense that every piece is confrontation & confession. Writing isn’t a disguise for me — it’s about posing bare in language, uncamouflaged, daring the world to look back.

    What first motivated you to write/create art?
    The silence around me grew too loud & the only way to thrive was to pour it into poesy. Saying it ‘motivated’ there feels too simple — it was always orbiting me, tarrying for the right time to unfurl. Life has a way of dictating us toward what we are meant to inherit & it was that inheritance for me. My first publication, Eternity, in failed haiku – a journal of English Senryu was the smallest spark that flared into wildfire. Since then, it’s been less of a wild journey & more of a haunting — lingo keeps chasing me & I’ve stopped trying to escape.

    If you could have any writer/artist, living or dead, as a mentor, who would you choose?
    I’d choose Federico García Lorca. It’s because he wrote like the world was both wound & wonder. Lorca had that rare fever: his literary pieces bled music, myth & rebellion all at once. I imagine him tutoring me how to sculpt beauty out of brutality, how to morph silence into thunder. He’d probably tell me to love language until it hurts. I ruminate that his mentorship would not be gentle — it would be an awakening, a reminder that poetry isn’t penned for solace but for confrontation & resurrection.

    Is there one part of your creation process that’s harder for you?
    Yes — editing. Rewriting your draft feels like performing surgery on something still respiring. The first draft always lands wild, half-mad, alive in its own chaos & I love it that way. But revision requires distance, precision — the cold hand after pyrexia. It’s hard to kill, erase lines that once felt divine, to admit that pulchritude sometimes needs pruning. Editing is painful but necessary — the part where I wrestle my ego & zero in on whether I want to impress myself or truly move someone else.

    Do you have a piece that you created early in your career that makes you cringe? Will you ever go back and fix it so it can be submitted somewhere?
    Oh, absolutely — I’ve got a wee graveyard of early pieces that make me wince every time I glance their way. ‘Where Did I Lose Myself,’ ‘I Love You My Darling,’ ‘And Then There Was None,’ — each one a time capsule of who I was before I drilled how to pour properly on the page. They’re sincere but clumsy, like first loves — too honest, too loud, too eager. I’m not sure I’ll ever fix them. Maybe they’re meant to be flawed. Sometimes it’s better to let old pieces haunt you tenderly than to resurrect them just to tame their ghosts.

    What is your biggest creative doubt? 
    My biggest creative doubt is whether lingo can ever truly hold what I feel. Words are the tandem of my weapon & my limitation — they shimmer, they gash but sometimes they just hover at the brink of what I mean, never quite landing. I often wonder if I’m translating my soul or merely bedazzling its silence.

    You’re stranded on a desert island - what three creative tools do you want with you?
    Owoo, that’s a fantastic scenario. If I were stranded on a desert island with just three creative tools to keep my writing alive, here’s what I’d pick: the first one, a solar-powered tablet — so I’d keep writing even when the desert forgets my moniker. A portable musical instrument like ukulele — because sometimes rhythm heals what lingo can’t. And a jar of sumi ink with a brush, old-school & primitive to remind me that art breathed with the hand before it ever kissed the screen. I’d paint my musings on driftwood, on shells, on the backs of palm leaves — let the island read me back. Together, these three would make a strange, enchanting trinity: technology, music & ritual — each satiating the other until loneliness sounds like creation.

E. E. King is the author of “The Rewards of Hospitality,” which appeared in 4LPH4NUM3R1C2.0 Episode 3 on 10 September 2025.

  • Do you use a pseudonym? Why or why not? 
    My name is Elizabeth Eve King. I write under E.E. King. Partially because it sounds cool, and partially because my first novel, Dirk Quigby's Guide to the Afterlife (All you need to know to choose the right heaven) is a comedy about religion. And, at least in 2010, when I published it it was harder to get accepted as a woman writing humor, especially if it pokes fun at religion.

    What first motivated you to write/create art?
    Oh my- I began as a dancer and in theater. Then I became a painter and writer. If the bug is in you it must come out! 

    If you could have any writer/artist, living or dead, as a mentor, who would you choose? 
    I was fortunate to have Ray Bradbury as my mentor, I couldn't ask for better. Although I would love to have met Aldous Huxley!

    Is there a specific period of history whose art or writing you admire? Why? 
    Well in writing I do love the English writers. It's more a sense of humor than a time- Roald Dahl (13 September 1916 – 23 November 1990), 

    John Collier  (1901–1980) Evelyn Waugh (1903–1966), Saki Hector Hugh Munro (18 December 1870 – 14 November 1916)

    Charles Dickens  (1812–1870), Lewis Carroll  (27 January 1832 – 14 January 1898), and of course Aldous Huxley (1894–1963).

    Is there one part of your creation process that’s harder for you? 
    Starting or finishing is often the hardest.  

    Talk about the moment you knew you wanted to be a creator. 
    I think I was born that way. 

    Do you have a piece that you created early in your career that makes you cringe? Will you ever go back and fix it so it can be submitted somewhere?
    Well, I have a number of unfinished novels. And one finished work that needs a going over, but I doubt I will ever do it. The finished novel deals with genocide and I don't want to enter that world again, although I believe it should be told. 

    What is your biggest creative doubt?  
    That no one reads me, or sees my art. 

    What piece of creative advice have you received that sounded good, but was ultimately not useful to you?
    That you should try to write everything, even kinds of fiction you don't like. 

    You’re stranded on a desert island - what three creative tools do you want with you? 
    A notebook and pencil - and made some brushes and paint... is that too many? Can I bring a book?

Sara Kaylin Lawson is the author of “Where Do People Like Me Go?” which appeared in 4LPH4NUM3R1C2.0 Episode 6 on 25 October 2025.

  • Do you use a pseudonym? Why or why not? 
    No, I use my real name, but my middle name instead of my last. For a long time, I felt like I had to keep parts of myself hidden in order to be accepted and loved. But writing under my real name has been part of reclaiming my story. I want to be known, on my own terms, and I want people to know it was me who survived, who kept writing, who kept living.

    What first motivated you to write/create art?
    I used to write a lot when I was a teenager, and I had lost the art of it until this last year. Writing became a way of piecing myself together in the aftermath of chronic illness, of loss, of rupture. I wrote to name things, to make sense of my emotional aftermath, and to feel less alone. Then, I took a chance and wanted to share my voice, too. 

    If you could have any writer/artist, living or dead, as a mentor, who would you choose?
    Jacqueline Lee Kennedy Onassis

    Is there a specific period of history whose art or writing you admire? Why? 
    I’m drawn to contemporary confessional writing, not quite the Plath/Sexton era, but the modern echo of it. Writers who balance personal excavation with cultural critique. I love this moment in history where people, especially women, are telling their stories in public without apology. I find that very brave!

    Is there one part of your creation process that’s harder for you? 
    Letting go. Releasing it, posting, submitting, and publishing feels like an act of trust I have to relearn every time.

    What is your biggest creative doubt? 
    That my voice is worth sharing, but I try to remember "you never know whose heart you'll touch".

Patrick W. Marsh is the author of “The Feeding,” which appeared in 4LPH4NUM3R1C2.0 Episode 1 on 10 August 2025.

  • Do you use a pseudonym? Why or why not?
    I do not use one. I'm Patrick W. Marsh. There are others, and I do believe there is an amphibian sanctuary with my name on it somewhere down south, but I decided to go by it with all my writing. I wanted to embrace the stuff I write, and be as close to it as possible. Creating another name seemed dishonest to my experience and motivations as a writer. Also, I don't want to hide from what I create. I make, examine, and illuminate monsters in fiction, poetry, and nonfiction. I study them and watch them interact. I love what I do. I wouldn't want to remove that degree of separation.

    What first motivated you to write/create art?
    I discovered through storytelling that you could captivate an audience and I could express my identity through narrative. I haven't felt seen or accepted for most of my life, and writing gave me a spotlight on my individual identity. My very own haunted mirror I could reflect back at the world. So I started writing in high school and haven't looked back. Writing about monsters always resonated with me. I always wondered and almost appreciated how honest they seemed to their environment. How at odds they were with their own reality. What was their backstory and why were they even here? I'm still pursuing those answers. 

    If you could have any writer/artist, living or dead, as a mentor, who would you choose?
    This is a fantastic question and I have no clue. Especially because I assume most of my picks would be terrible mentors since they were at odds with themselves. I would for certain raid the graveyard of American poets; Robert Frost, Emily Dicknson, Langston Hughes, and Wallace Stevens are immediate choices. Ray Bradbury would be another one maybe. I think I would go with poets though. Sylvia Plath, Seamus Heaney, and Pablo Neruda are also possibilities. 

    Is there a specific period of history whose art or writing you admire? Why?
    This is a really odd answer, or at least I feel a bit self-conscious about it. My answer would be in gaming, and I would focus on the video games released by Squaresoft in the 1990's. They're the studio that invented Final Fantasy, Secret of Mana, Chrono Trigger, among many other legendary JRPGs. Now, in these games the narrative was so diction heavy and literature-esque, it felt like I was acting out classical texts by playing them. These games were fiction, but the characters were incredibly human and they taught me that even in speculative genres you could have emotional resonance with your audience. Humanity reaches across genres, and these classic JRPGs taught me that as I played them. Also they had fantastic monsters. A whole nightmare rainbow. 

    Is there one part of your creation process that’s harder for you?
    Editing. I don't like it. I don't like doing it. I find it to be both masochistic and self-indulgent. However, it is absolutely necessary and stimulates the most growth you can find as a writer. Refining your editing process, or, gasp, editing your editing, is a worthwhile pursuit. I think a lot of mistakes young writers make is undervaluing this process. However, it sucks and it's hard. I hate it. 

    Talk about the moment you knew you wanted to be a creator.
    The moment I tore through my mother's embryonic sac I snatched the doctor's pen out of his pocket. Actually, I'm not quite sure. I think it was in high school when I could submit work to our student-run literary magazine. My story, the Nodachi, got published. Also, getting my own blog and being able to release content on my own terms back in the early days of blogspot. The advent and explosion of self-publishing was also a factor for me. It made creating books feel closer to me, something anyone could do potentially.

    Do you have a piece that you created early in your career that makes you cringe? Will you ever go back and fix it so it can be submitted somewhere?
    I think my first book Beware the Ills is still pretty troubling for my mind. I've revised it a bunch of different times. I feel confident about it. I love the book to pieces, but I'm still self-conscious about it. I think with that first book you put so much of your soul into it, you feel vulnerable. It is like being in a relationship. You have to let yourself out there to be understood, but you don't know how the person, or in this case the audience will react. You open yourself up to an interaction, and you hope you've communicated clearly and effectively, but with a book there is a lot of room for error. 

    What is your biggest creative doubt?
    Oof. This is a whopper of a question. I would say I don't have a specific doubt, but I have a feeling that hits me whenever I start a new poem, story, blog post, or book. It is like the uncertainty of freedom that writing provides for me is a bit immobilizing. I feel lost in my own possibilities. I have all the freedom in the world to create my own story, but that void of the empty page is also intimidating. So I guess my abstract answer to this question is the inherent doubt that comes with creation. You don't know what you will create, nor if it will be consumable or digestible. You build a world from atoms and electrons out of digital ink and notebook paper. It is difficult but wondrous. The terror of complete possibility.

    What piece of creative advice have you received that sounded good, but was ultimately not useful to you?
    I've heard a ton of garbage advice for years. Hard to sift through the flotsam at this point. One piece of advice I've heard with writing, or the arts in general, is the idea that if you don't have passion for a project or piece of writing, abandon it. This would be false. Passion can wane with things you love and care about. Energy has seasons. I've written poems I adore only to have zero passion to edit and workshop them. Passion isn't just enough to get through the doubt and work, you have to have stubbornness, routine, and consistency. If you lose passion don't panic, that's just when the work begins. The instant gratification aspect of our culture is reflected in how we approach creative projects. We expect constant lightning and tropical shores, but that isn't the reality of creating art. Sometimes it is work. Sometimes you'll hate it. That, or those moments, are where the growth happens. 

    You’re stranded on a desert island — what three creative tools do you want with you?
    Black Moleskin Notebook, my curated Pandora playlist of video game music, and a pack of ballpoint pens.  

Sonia Mehta is the author of “She’s Hungry Again/The Birth of Venus,” which appeared in 4LPH4NUM3R1C2.0 Episode 1 on 10 August 2025.

  • What first motivated you to write/create art?
    I first started writing poems as birthday gifts for my family. Mostly just because I was seven years old and broke, so I didn’t have a plethora of options. But also because it felt like the closest thing I could give someone to a physical piece of me. Now, I’m motivated by the fact that my writing is entirely my own. No one else gets to have it unless I choose to give it. I think I like the autonomy. 

    f you could have any writer/artist, living or dead, as a mentor, who would you choose? 
    Donna Tartt. She takes her time. She’s written just 3 books in over 3 decades, and it’s by choice. Everything feels so rushed now. I’d like to absorb her ability to chill. She also likes to write in public libraries, like me, so I think we’d vibe.

    Is there a specific period of history whose art or writing you admire? Why? 
    The 1960s and 1970s. There was something in the air at that time, the voice of American writers was so distinct. Reading Patti Smith, Toni Morrison, or Joan Didion, you can physically feel the creativity that was on the streets at the time.  

    Is there one part of your creation process that’s harder for you? 
    Editing down a piece to meet a word or page limit. I don’t have kids, but it’s what I imagine giving up your firstborn to Rumpelstiltskin to feel like. 

    Do you have a piece that you created early in your career that makes you cringe? Will you ever go back and fix it so it can be submitted somewhere?
    When I was a kid, I made a deal with my parents that they would buy me an American Girl Doll if I wrote a book, so I wrote a 20 page monstrosity detailing the trials and tribulations of a young Native American girl who ends up being the tribe leader at the ripe age of eleven. Got the doll, so no regrets, but I refuse to re-read it. 

    What piece of creative advice have you received that sounded good, but was ultimately not useful to you?
    “Write every single day because you have to write every day to truly be a writer.” False, limiting, and unrealistic. A writer is a person who writes, I think. 

    You’re stranded on a desert island — what three creative tools do you want with you? 
    Leather journal and pen, wired headphones with Hogwarts ambiance audios playing, and a tea scented candle with my Kafka matches from his museum in Prague. 

Fabiyas MV is the author of “An Old Palm Tree,” which appeared in 4LPH4NUM3R1C2.0 Episode 5 on 10 October 2025.

  • Do you use a pseudonym? Who or why not? 
    No, because I love my real name.

    What first motivated you to write?
    It was the sudden climate change –a drizzle over the parching summer.

    If you could have any writer, living or dead, as a mentor, who would you choose?
    Myself

    Is there a part of the creative process that’s harder for you?
    No, I enjoy each and every part of the creative process.

    Talk about the moment you knew you wanted to be a creator.
    I was twelve years old then. I penned a poem in my mother tongue, Malayalam. More than delighted, my dad and teachers were surprised to see my creativity.

    What is your biggest creative doubt?
    It’s nothing other than if a native English reader can enjoy my poetry without losing its soul.

    What piece of advice have you received that sounded good, but was ultimately not useful to you?
    Try to establish rapport with the eminent writers.

    You’re stranded on a desert island - what three creative tools do you want with you?
    A laptop, a book of poetry, and my mind.

Alan Keith Parker is the author of “No Refills for Humans,” which appeared in 4LPH4NUM3R1C2.0 Episode 4 on 25 September 2025.

  • Do you use a pseudonym? Why or why not?  
    Nope, I use my real name, Keith Parker.  For a while I considered using A.K. Parker if I  ventured  outside my genre, but hell, what is my genre?  I write science fiction, fantasy, horror, romantic comedy, absurdist fiction and even have a mystery story.  Using a different pen name for each genre would drive me bananas.

    What first motivated you to write/create art? 
    The Original Twilight Zone and The Waltons.  I’m part of Gen-X, the syndication generation.  I got hooked on the old Twilight Zone when I was a kid, so I used my parents’ typewriter and wrote my own versions of those stories.  

    The Waltons is narrated by a character who’s an aspiring author.  I knew, somehow, that I would be him one day!

    Writing is something I simply had to do.  I can’t really explain it.

    If you could have any writer/artist, living or dead, as a mentor, who would you choose? 
    Holy cow!  My influences include Stephen King, Ray Bradbury, Joyce Carol Oates,  Shirley Jackson, Dan Simmons, H.P. Lovecraft, Kurt Vonnegut, Pat Conroy and Isaac Asimov.  So could I sit around a bar and talk to all of them?  Except Lovecraft. He was an asshole.

    Is there a specific period of history whose art or writing you admire? Why? 
    I love the epistolary stories of the 1800s.  Reading a story written in the form of letters or diary gives me an intimate look into the character’s mind. 

    Almost all of my own writing is set in the present day, where ordinary world goes seriously sideways. That could be humor, could be horror.  But there’s something fascinating about tales written in the 19th century.  The inferences and double entendres are amazing

    Is there a specific period of history whose art or writing you admire? Why? 
    I love the gothic stories of the 1800s, especially when they use (in whole or in part) an epistolary format (letters, diary entries, ship’s logs, newspapers, etc.).

    Almost all of my own writing is set in the present day, where ordinary world goes seriously sideways. That could be humor, could be horror.  But there’s something fascinating about tales written in the 19th century.  The inferences and double entendres are amazing, and I love how the authors are able to write strong, independent women in an era when women were, at best, second class citizens.  Plus, I like creepy.

    Is there one part of your creation process that’s harder for you? 
    Plot. Despite having a lot of success with my flash fiction, making sure I have a good arc is always a pain.  

    Talk about the moment you knew you wanted to be a creator. 
    A friend invited me to go with him to a writer’s conference being hosted by our alma mater, Birmingham-Southern College, a small liberal arts school.  When I heard about this a switch flipped in my head.  Not only did I have to go, it  revived my childhood hobby immediately.  It was a compulsion.  From then on, I couldn’t not write!  And they had wine. 

    Do you have a piece that you created early in your career that makes you cringe? Will you ever go back and fix it so it can be submitted somewhere?
    Throughout the 2000s and early 2010s I wrote a lot of stories that I thought readers and publishers would want.  One in particular , a fable about animals trying to figure out the last digit of pi, is one of the most idiotic things I’ve ever concocted.   My hard drive is littered with crap like this, stories I was writing for others rather than myself. 

    What is your biggest creative doubt?  
    This may sound arrogant, but I don’t doubt my writing anymore. Three or four years ago I had a revelation: I decided I was too old not to  write exactly what I want to read.  I now frequently go back and read my own stuff.  

    What piece of creative advice have you received that sounded good, but was ultimately not useful to you?
    “Write about what you know.”  The stuff I know is boring. I want to write about all the stuff I don’t know. That’s what’s magical about fiction: You get to imagine a world that doesn’t exist.  You get to explore the idiosyncrasies of characters you’ve  never met. 

Nick Porisch is the author of “Interdimensional Relocation Hotline,” which appeared in 4LPH4NUM3R1C2.0 Episode 2 on 25 August 2025.

  • Do you use a pseudonym? Why or why not?
    I don’t. I have a pretty unique name that’s distinguishable by itself, and I’m fortunate to not have a career that would require me to separate my writing from the rest of my public image. 

    What first motivated you to write/create art?
    When I was young, I’d play what I called the “Adventure Game” pretty much 24/7, during which I imagined whole worlds, characters, and storylines to act out in neighborhood parks and Wal-Mart aisles. My mom encouraged me to start writing the Adventure Game down when I was 4 or 5, and I never really stopped. 

    If you could have any writer/artist, living or dead, as a mentor, who would you choose?
    This is an interesting question because I feel like the writers I admire the most aren’t necessarily the writers that I have the most to learn from. That being said, my answer might be the Coen Brothers, which is kind of a cop out answer because they’re two different people and no longer work together. But their films together are so beautifully written and their process is so shrouded in mystery that I would love to have them looking over my shoulder and mentoring me through my next writing project. 

    Is there a specific period of history whose art or writing you admire? Why?
    I’m a classic Gen Z hipster that loves the 1960s and early 1970s. There was so much change happening in the world during that era and the art of that period reflects that. Writers like Joan Didion, Kurt Vonnegut, Philip K. Dick, and so many more were re-defining non-fiction and fiction writing in America. Film, globally, was going through an incredible metamorphosis via the French New Wave and incredible international filmmakers like Masaki Kobayashi. Music and visual art were rapidly changing, as well. Complicated and changing times create complicated and changing art. 

    Is there one part of your creation process that’s harder for you?
    Revision has always been daunting to me. I’ve grown to enjoy it, but for a long time it felt like it was this impossible situation where you build a tower out of a deck of cards, then realize the tower isn’t quite right, and now you have to change part of the tower without collapsing the whole thing. Like a lot of writers, though, I eventually learned that accepting that your story isn’t a perfect, infinitely fragile Swiss clock is the first step to making it actually function! 

    Talk about the moment you knew you wanted to be a creator.
    It’s never really been a question for me. I think if I was trapped alone on a space probe heading for the deepest reaches of the galaxy, I’d end up writing stories on the walls. 

    Do you have a piece that you created early in your career that makes you cringe? Will you ever go back and fix it so it can be submitted somewhere?
    In middle school, I wrote an entire novel about teenagers using tunnels beneath their suburban town to shoplift from department stores. It eventually devolves into Fight Club-esque chaos with a deranged detective putting the city under martial law and our hero dangling from a skyscraper. In other words, it’s borderline nonsensical. But I could see myself reusing that premise at some point, because there’s something interesting in there. 

    What is your biggest creative doubt?
    I think my biggest doubt is also a positive thing about our creative world — that there are just so many talented, creative people out there. I’m constantly amazed at the incredible work of other writers, and I suppose I wonder what could make my own work standout in such an awesomely full field. Good problems! 

    What piece of creative advice have you received that sounded good, but was ultimately not useful to you?
    The world is full of people who want to profit of of aspiring creatives by selling them advice. I’ve read piles of books on writing and creativity, and probably about 70-90% of their contents could be answers to this question. As highfalutin as it sounds, I think my favorite writing advice comes straight from Hemingway: “All you have to do is write one true sentence. Write the truest sentence you know.” 

    You’re stranded on a desert island - what three creative tools do you want with you?
    Pens, paper, and a troupe of 5 to 10 actors. We’d perform desert island community theater and eat coconut crabs until we’re all geriatric.

Tukur Ridwan is the author of “Out of Earth,” which appeared in 4LPH4NUM3R1C2.0 Episode 4 on 25 September 2025.

  • Do you use a pseudonym? Why or why not? 
    I do not use a pseudonym.As a person and author, my name remains Tukur Loba Ridwan (last, middle, and first, respectively). I wish I could’ve conceived a pseudonym. Yet, I feel more whole with this name, being an intricate identity I’m yet to detach from.

    What first motivated you to write/create art?
    The urge to create art (poetry) began with pain, usually from rejection, my sensitivity, and vulnerability. It was more like a breaking point for me, back in university, 12 years ago. I was just a teen (eighteen; pun intended) trying to experience intimacy outside of my family and friendship. Aside from a wonderful family, I had good friends in university, some of whom were also poets and writers whose musings and drafts I enjoyed reading for pastime. But I wanted something more sentient, which I felt that dating and romance could give me. So, the pain and urge to write began from the difficulty of achieving that intimacy. I’d blame my hormones for that. My restless and chaotic mind found relief from writing love and heartbreak poems, not to mention my grouse with societal complexities across morality, identity crisis, and social imbalance. I was an idealist of some sort, with a knack for philosophy, being a student of Political Science. Poetry became my sweetest form of release and vessel of intellectual expression.

    As a student of Literature in high school, with fond memories of poems like On His Blindness by John Milton, Songs of Sorrow by Kofi Awonoor, and The Second Coming by W. B. Yeats, I was fortunate to have kept the old literature textbooks filled with lots of 20th-century poems. So, I’d read and learn the lyrical and metrical techniques from every poem I studied, then practice what I learnt by writing my own poem, then show my friends to read. They seemed to enjoy my writing for a beginner, and their encouragement pushed me further. From a mere pastime, poetry for me quickly became an addiction, as I’d always visit the school library to find poetry collections and anthologies on different themes, to broaden my horizon in this genre of literature. I’d also borrow poetry books from friends who had one or ten, then the rest was history. 

    If you could have any writer/artist, living or dead, as a mentor, who would you choose? 
    William Butler Yeats is one classical poet who easily comes to mind, for sentimental reasons. He’s my birthday mate. June 13, a Gemini like myself.Aside from that, I greatly benefited from the personal mentorship of a veteran Nigerian poet, scholar and ideologue, Funsho Richard, for eight years. His consistent support and guidance expanded my approach to poetry by helping me tap into my insights on identity, psychology and mental health; humanities and postmodernism. With Funsho, poetry became more of an incursion and interrogation of the logical and emotional depth of my humanity, so I couldn’t ask for any better. 

    Is there one part of your creation process that’s harder for you? 
    The hardest part of my creation/writing process is determining when my poem is complete. But it’s getting easier with time. I could easily pride myself in finishing a 25-line draft in ten minutes, because that’s the best way for me to pin down a burning muse or conflicting thoughts for clarity. But after finishing the draft, I perused the poem for missing details multiple times, especially in the aspects of showing and telling. I try to make my poems connect better by demonstrating practical or surreal details with imagery, allusion, metaphor, personification, etc., for literary elaboration. I also use storytelling in between the rhetoric to “show”, rather than using abstract descriptions to “tell”. So, this is where the challenge is for me, because my poem has to manifest my ideas with tight rhetorical elements, storytelling, and brevity. No vague expressions, no verbose fillers. Hence, I strive for easy-to-grasp mental pictures for a reader to connect and relate with my narratives, and that’s where the real work is. It's not necessarily the end of the poem that completes it, but the in-betweens that connect the dots in a narrative, confessional, absurdist, surrealist, or didactic poem, etc.

    Talk about the moment you knew you wanted to be a creator. 
    That was about two years since I started writing poetry in October 2013. I was a sucker for classic R&B music before then, and any lyrical art always appealed to my creative sense. But the problem was singing. I couldn’t sing. I remember learning to write my own lyrics in 2011 after listening to Donell Jones’ sophomore album, Where I Wanna Be. But I couldn’t find a melody for my lyrics till songwriting became a thing of the past within a year after I enrolled in tertiary education. 

    Then, when poetry came by, I felt that I still had that creativity and zeal to write heartfelt words in lines, not in paragraphs. So, my university experiences sealed my bond with poetry. I just kept going till poetry became my second nature. Poetry eclipsed my academic focus for some time because multitasking wasn’t my strong suit. So, I divided my focus between studies and poetry, as the latter snatched my attention from everything else. 

    Then when I won the Bridgitte Poirson Poetry Contest in March 2018, published my first poetry chapbook in April 2019 (A Boy’s Tears on Earth’s Tongue), attended the Terrifik Book Chat with students of my alma mater (Terrifik Book Chat), cohorted as a poetry mentor with SprinNG Writing Fellowship and Transcendence Masterclass in 2020, and garnered praises all along, I already knew I was born for this.

    Do you have a piece that you created early in your career that makes you cringe? Will you ever go back and fix it so it can be submitted somewhere?
    Of course, I have pieces. Pieces! And I’ve been working on many of them already, with so much rigour. 

    The tea here is that my poem, “Out of Earth”, was first drafted in 2015. I cringed when I read it again in June this year, but what I wrote then was the height of my muse when I was so engrossed with Astrology and zodiac signs. So, I rewrote everything with better context, for a better output, and I thank Zoetic Press and Non-Binary Review for accepting and publishing the poem. Also, I’m glad that I’ve come so far with almost a thousand unpublished poems, and I still work on many of them while writing new poems.  

    What is your biggest creative doubt?  
    My bits of creative doubts are yet to compound into a single “big” one. I must confess that rejections fuel these doubts sometimes, but I am surmounting them with each publication milestone. For example, I still strive for nominations like the Pushcart Prize and Best of the Net, yet I don’t doubt bagging them. I only need to intensify my literary pursuits by further reading, writing, submitting, and researching the global literary, academic, and creative landscape for more opportunities.

    You’re stranded on a desert island - what three creative tools do you want with you? 
    Books,stationery, and a phone. Hope I’d find food and water around, too, so I wouldn’t die.

D. L. Stille is the author of “Recluse,” which appeared in 4LPH4NUM3R1C2.0 Episode 4 on 25 September 2025.

  • What first motivated you to write/create art?
    I’ve always loved writing, but I’ve had a close friend since middle school, Karen Myna Cantor, who really inspired me back when we were kids. We wrote all the time. We would even pretend to be pen pals. I have this clear memory of us sitting five feet apart, in silence, writing each other letters, and then drafting replies. She’s still writing, and she has this strong voice and great wit in her writing that I aspire to. She actually has two books coming out with Holiday House in 2026 and 2027.

    If you could have any writer/artist, living or dead, as a mentor, who would you choose?
    My choice would be N.K. Jemisin. She’s my favorite author: her world-building and character development are unmatched. Even her most fantastical settings feel so tangible and real. I can really lose myself in her books (in a good way). Having her as a mentor—or even just having a conversation with her—would be a dream come true.

    Is there one part of your creation process that’s harder for you?
    I think endings are the most challenging part of writing for me. Whether it’s a short story or a manuscript, an ending is what can make or break a piece. Writing that perfect, well-paced, satisfying ending doesn’t come easily, but luckily, I have fantastic beta readers who always give great feedback.

    Do you have a piece that you created early in your career that makes you cringe? Will you ever go back and fix it so it can be submitted somewhere?
    I actually just revisited & revised one of those early, “cringe” short stories. While I can’t share too many details yet, the piece has found its home, and I’ll share a link on my website when it’s published! 

    What piece of creative advice have you received that sounded good, but was ultimately not useful to you?
    While some writers might say you need many beta readers, in my opinion, all you need is 2-3 beta readers that really know how to distill their thoughts into actionable feedback. Don’t feel pressured to send your writing out to a dozen people and apply all of that feedback: find the people who really get you and your writing, and find the people that are able to clearly identify what works, and what doesn’t.

    You’re stranded on a desert island - what three creative tools do you want with you?
    I like to handwrite my drafts, then type them up later, so definitely a pen and a notebook. Other than that, something to listen to music on. Maybe an iPod Nano—I used to love my Nano! 

Annie ZH Sun is the author of “Bridal Joys,” which appeared in 4LPH4NUM3R1C2.0 Episode 7 on 10 November 2025.

  • If you could have any writer/artist, living or dead, as a mentor, who would you choose? 
    I feel my answer would change with age. I would’ve definitely said Enid Blyton as a child, and there’d be an unending list which changed on a daily basis as a teenager, but my all time favourite writer is Diana Wynne Jones. Of course, my current mentor, Lindz Mcleod, is absolutely wonderful, too. 

    Is there one part of your creation process that’s harder for you? 
    I have way too many ideas and it is very difficult to narrow things down. I often write a combination of two or three ideas together, which yields to surprising effects. It’s sometimes very hard not to doubt myself, and the choices I’ve made in my writing. But in the end, it usually works out, as long as I have fully grasped the core of my story. 

    Talk about the moment you knew you wanted to be a creator. 
    Throughout my life, there are stories I’ve read which have reached into the deepest and softest part of me, and touched my soul. I feel myself changed by them and I carry these stories inside me. So I guess it is not a moment, but a number of moments where I am awestruck. To be able to create and influence and change someone the way writers could, is such a magical ability. I aspire to wield that magic, even just a little bit. 

    Do you have a piece that you created early in your career that makes you cringe? Will you ever go back and fix it so it can be submitted somewhere?
    As a teenager with huge feelings, I’ve written myself a whole fantasy series worth of cringe. I’d definitely want to go back and salvage the plot because I still believe in the story, but I’ll probably need a lot more time before I can go back. 

    What is your biggest creative doubt?  
    Sometimes I’d write myself into tight spots and wonder, will this story make it? Or will it be another abandoned project in the drawer? Do I have it in me to write or fix or come up with a good story? I’m scared that once I call it a day, the story will remain unfinished forever. 

    What piece of creative advice have you received that sounded good, but was ultimately not useful to you?
    Write every day. The pressure is too big. I’m constantly checking: how many words have I written today? Am I a failure because I’ve skipped a day, which easily turns into two, then three. Eventually, I am forced to accept that writing comes in seasons for me—-sometimes I’m able to harvest more words, write almost daily, and sometimes that doesn’t happen, and that’s okay too. Once the pressure is off, it’s a lot easier to write because I remember that I actually like writing. 

    You’re stranded on a desert island - what three creative tools do you want with you? 

    1. Keyboard—I almost never write by hand unless it’s book plotting. My hand can’t keep up with the speed of my thoughts. 

    2. Coffee—is a blessing from the Gods. We must not waste it. 

    3. A cat because….well, cats. They cute. They purr. What more reasons does one need? 

Joshua Walker is the author of “The Sky Wore My Face t o the Funeral,” which appeared in 4LPH4NUM3R1C2.0 Episode 5 on 10 October 2025.

  • Do you use a pseudonym? Why or why not?
    Kind of — I sometimes go by the nom de plume The Last Bard. It isn’t a hard boundary for me; it’s more interchangeable with my own name, functioning as an extension of my identity. It works as both a personal signature and a brand, helping distinguish me in a sea of Joshua Walkers. For me, it’s not just a name — it’s a statement, a declaration of purpose.

    What first motivated you to write/create art?
    Life. I write as a reaction to life. Years ago, I was a mopey, whiny teenager scribbling pretentious poetry in his room as a way to process the world. Now I’m a mopey, whiny adult still doing the same — only hopefully with less pretension. Writing remains my way of wrestling with existence, turning confusion, pain, and wonder into something worth holding onto.

    If you could have any writer/artist, living or dead, as a mentor, who would you choose?
    That’s a hard one. All my favorite poets were a mess. Would I want Emily Dickinson to teach me how to brood and glare? Or Oscar Wilde or Lord Byron to school me in the art of debauchery? Maybe Poe or Bukowski to teach me how to drink with purpose. I suppose I’m drawn to flawed mentors — they make the best teachers. Positive role models have never been my thing.

    Is there a specific period of history whose art or writing you admire? Why?
    That’s a hard one — it depends on the day. Ask me on a Tuesday and I’d say the Renaissance. Wednesday, the Age of the Romantics. Thursday, the Elizabethan era. Each period carries its own wild brilliance, its own truth, and its own kind of madness. I admire them all for how they dared to make art that burned with life.

    Is there one part of your creation process that’s harder for you?
    Honestly — reading my own work after it’s done. It always feels a little dirty, like catching yourself in a private act of confession. There’s intimacy there I can’t fully escape, and it’s both uncomfortable and necessary.

    Talk about the moment you knew you wanted to be a creator.
    There wasn’t a single moment. It just kind of happened when I was a wee lad. They had us write basic poetry in school, and I was the best in my class — and that never changed. That said, not to be humble, I’m not a huge fan of reading my own work. Creation for me is less about applause and more about the act itself.

    Do you have a piece that you created early in your career that makes you cringe? Will you ever go back and fix it so it can be submitted somewhere?
    Funny enough, yes — and I’ve done it several times. I love going back and rewriting my cringey teenage work. There’s something satisfying about reshaping those early mistakes. And yes, some of those rewrites have even found their way into journals. It’s proof that nothing is ever wasted in creation.

    What is your biggest creative doubt?
    I believe in giving it my all every time I write. It can get messy, even emotional, but I try to leave everything on the page. My biggest doubt is always the same: did I truly give everything I had? Was that everything?

    What piece of creative advice have you received that sounded good, but was ultimately not useful to you?
    That’s a fun one. I mostly write poetry, with the occasional short story, and I’ve often been told by non-writers: “You should just write a novel — that’s where the money is.” As if it’s as simple as deciding to wake up and write a novel today, then getting it published. It’s not only tedious and boring to me, but I also don’t have the attention span to stay on a single piece that long. My art thrives in brevity and intensity, not sprawling novels.

    You’re stranded on a desert island — what three creative tools do you want with you?
    A really sharp pen — not just for writing, but for hunting if needed. A simple notebook to capture thoughts and poems. And honestly… a working cell phone, so I can listen to music while I write and then, after an hour, call for rescue. The whole deserted island Wilson thing isn’t for me.

Larina Warnock is the author of “The Farmer and the Princess,” which appeared in 4LPH4NUM3R1C2.0 Episode

  • Do you use a pseudonym? Why or why not? 
    I don't, unless you count my married name, mostly because I don't really need to. I imagine if I ever decided to write a children's book, a pseudonym might keep littles from accidentally stumbling onto my story about a demon dog or my poem about bloodletting in a church.

    What first motivated you to write/create art?
    At first, I wrote to hide the horrors that were happening in my life. It was a way to speak up without putting myself in danger.

    If you could have any writer/artist, living or dead, as a mentor, who would you choose? 
    This is a tough question because not everyone who is a great writer also has the capacity to be a great mentor, and some amazing mentors are not amazing writers. I've taken classes from some well-known (even famous) writers and learned very little. I guess I am content with finding mentors in a less dramatic way than necromancy. That said, I can definitely think of a writer or two I'd be willing to resurrect just to talk to them!

    Is there a specific period of history whose art or writing you admire? Why? 
    I have a strong appreciation for American writing from the late 19th and early 20th centuries. I think it was a time when culture was shifting so rapidly writers felt a call to bravery and became part of the cultural change, mostly in positive ways. I think about the impact of Wharton, Twain, and Steinbeck, and I wish reading (and political writing) were as ubiquitous now as they were then.

    Is there one part of your creation process that’s harder for you? 
    I positively hate the revision stage. My neurodivergent brain gets twisted in knots by so many choices, and the longer the work that needs revised, the more knots my brain has. I'm also a terrible self-critic, so I tend to see a lot wrong with my work before I revise. I have to get myself through a whole range of emotions before I can even start to plot a path forward.

    Talk about the moment you knew you wanted to be a creator. 
    I don't know that there was a specific moment. I've always just created. 

    Do you have a piece that you created early in your career that makes you cringe? Will you ever go back and fix it so it can be submitted somewhere?
    I have many pieces from my early career that make me cringe, especially when I was in my "read all the sexy poets" stage during my teen years. Every once in a while, I'll pull something out and see what I can do with it, but truthfully, I hate revising my work when there isn't a lot wrong with it!

    What is your biggest creative doubt?  
    All of it. Everything about creativity is uncertain and terrifying. That's what makes it worth it.

    What piece of creative advice have you received that sounded good, but was ultimately not useful to you?
    Freytag's stupid pyramid. I get it. There's a long tradition of writing using this framework and the three act structure. A tradition created (and legitimized) primarily by straight, white men living typical lives. I am not a white man, nor have I lived a typical life.  

    You’re stranded on a desert island - what three creative tools do you want with you? 
    Pen, paper, pillow. Seriously - good sleep is an important creative tool!

Joely Williams is the author of “Instructions for Time Travel via Your Grandmother’s Laugh,” which appeared in 4LPH4NUM3R1C2.0 Episode 2 on 25 August 2025.

  • Do you use a pseudonym? Why or why not?
    No, I don’t. I believe my name carries my lineage, and I want my ancestors to see their reflection in my work- even if I’m writing about glitching satellites or suburban ghosts. My name is special to me because it holds the weight of my life. When someone says it, when it shows up in an email or gets published somewhere, there’s this quiet joy and a sense of purpose being fulfilled. It reminds me that I’m alive.

    What first motivated you to write/create art?
    Well, I’ve always been drawn to writing — writing letters to my family when I only knew how to spell a handful of words. As I got older and fell in love with writing and literature, I realized it wasn’t just about surviving or doing it purely for the love of it — it was also about sharing my story with those who could relate, or even helping set someone free from something they might be dealing with. Sometimes it’s just about bringing someone to another place through the words I put down on paper. Writing became my own way of contributing to a revolution. It gave me a way to connect with others — especially people who don’t often see themselves in mainstream stories.

    If you could have any writer/artist, living or dead, as a mentor, who would you choose?
    I’d like to say Emily Dickinson — she saw so much, and she was so smart with her words. Honestly, if I could, I think I’d live the way she did. But didn’t she come from a wealthy family? Maybe we wouldn't have been in the same social setting so it would have been hard for us to be friends — Meaning that she was able to do these things with the financial backing. Was she even a real person? I wasn’t there, so I can’t say for sure. Still, from what I’ve read and the little research I’ve done, I would have loved to receive mentorship from her. I imagine she could’ve helped me refine my voice, offered hope during the hard seasons of being a writer, or even gone deep into strange and mysterious research adventures about writing topics. That would’ve been both entertaining and thought-provoking.

    Is there a specific period of history whose art or writing you admire? Why?
    The specific period of history I most admire is the early 1900s among the Gullah-Geechee communities in the American South. This post-Reconstruction, pre-Great Migration era was a powerful time when African-descended people preserved rich cultural traditions and spiritual practices despite the pressures to assimilate or move. Julie Dash’s film Daughters of the Dust brings this era vividly to life, using poetic, lyrical shots that feel like visual poetry — slow, intentional, and deeply connected to memory and spirit. Its such a special film to me and that style of storytelling resonates strongly with the type of work I want to create: art that invites reflection, honors the past, and weaves history — however dark or light — into the present with a spiritual, almost meditative essence to it. The film’s blend of community, memory, and poetic truth continues to inspire my creative journey.

    Is there one part of your creation process that’s harder for you?
    Something that I find difficult is the acceptance that this is my gift. This is that thing that I was born with — the force that drives me, and what will hopefully guide my children and future generations. But there are times when I sit down to write and what I’m trying to say doesn’t come out right. What I had in mind gets lost on the page. There are days when I don’t want to write a thought down, and then I forget it, and I end up feeling guilty for letting it slip away. It’s a constant tension between honoring the weight of the gift and giving myself grace in how I carry it.

    Talk about the moment you knew you wanted to be a creator.
    I think it might have been in the third grade when I was learning how to write an essay — putting together all of these sentences to create a paragraph. Learning about the grammar and structure of words, and using those words to create something that might actually move my teacher, Ms. Romero — shout out to her. At that moment, I realized I could write essays, letters, poems to people outside of just my family members. I started writing letters and sending them through the mail. One of them definitely stirred up some drama in my family, but it showed me the true power of words — to move people, to cause a commotion, or to bring about a peaceful calm. I think that's what started my desire to be a creator — to reach the word and cause drama, commotion, and peace to all who read it.

    Do you have a piece that you created early in your career that makes you cringe? Will you ever go back and fix it so it can be submitted somewhere?
    I wrote too many poems in college about one of my ex’s and it was just bad. Like, bad bad. But I’m strangely proud of it — it was honest in its own ridiculous way. I’ll probably leave it in the archives where it belongs.

    What is your biggest creative doubt?
    That I will stop writing and not care about it anymore. Not care about the stories, the poems, the metaphors, the style and technique. Not listen to that need in my mind, body and soul to create. That's a scary thought — like what else am I going to do then?

    What piece of creative advice have you received that sounded good, but was ultimately not useful to you?
    “Write every day.” It works for some, but it just made me feel guilty. For me, it’s not about writing every day — it’s about being open every day. If I’m living and observing with intention, the words will come when they need to. I love to just live and then ill have moments 

    You’re stranded on a desert island — what three creative tools do you want with you?

    • A notebook with endless pages

    • A pen that never runs out

    • A mirror or a soccer ball - (to stay connected to humanity)

    • Solar-powered tablet with my writing archive

    • A sketchpad

    • A voice recorder to capture ideas and the sound of loneliness

    • And my journals even the ones that I lost in the past

Peri Dwyer Worrell is the author of “Corporate Call Center Representative",” which appeared in 4LPH4NUM3R1C2.0 Episode 6 on 25 October 2025.

  • Do you use a pseudonym? Why or why not?
    I love pen names! I’ve made up 10 or 15 of them, just playing with sounds and meanings. I used a few of them when I first started submitting and publishing, but I eventually settled into just using my own name. I would never publish poetry under a pseudonym. Poetry is full frontal exposure of the most intimate and honest part of your being, and it would feel wrong to hide behind a fake name. There is one pen name I still use regularly, though. I use it to self-publish erotic romance. The only clue I’ll give you is that it’s Pig Latin.

    What first motivated you to write/create art?
    It never occurred to me NOT to create art: written, graphic, or textile. Music doesn’t come naturally to me but I do love to sing, and I came from a theater and dance family so I had the chance to act when I was very young. But I gravitated towards the written word because it’s where I felt most at home.

    If you could have any writer/artist, living or dead, as a mentor, who would you choose?
    If I could have any writer or artist, alive or dead, as a mentor, I would choose either the late, great Anne Rice or that notorious wit, Dorothy Parker. Ann Rice might seem like an odd choice, but I really admire the way she took a subgenre, vampire horror, that was stale and clichéd and singlehandedly transformed it into something vital and lyrical. Dorothy Parker was so funny, and at the same time her fiction was often touching and emotional without being maudlin. She held her own in a very competitive "man’s world” and remained spontaneous and self-assured the whole time.  Although, when I reflect, as a woman in my 60s, on the idea of mentorship I’d have to say that the best mentorship I’ve received over my life was from people I would never have chosen as mentors. Usually the experience was unpleasant at the time, because a good mentor sees things in you that you don’t see in yourself and refuses to accept anything from you but your best: No excuses. 

    Is there a specific period of history whose art or writing you admire? Why?
    A period of history whose writing I admire? As a sci-fi writer, I’d have to say the mid-to-late 20th century, where you start off with writers like Ray Bradbury, Daniel Keyes, and Robert Heinlein, and then you get Phillip K Dick, Ursula Leguin, Kurt Vonnegut, Margaret Atwood, Harlan Ellison, et cetera. So many greats, and such a melding of poetry with calculated scientific speculation. That’s something I strive for in my fiction: flowing with the beauty of the language and at the same time building a setting or a world—or a galaxy!—that’s plausible from an analytical standpoint.

    Talk about the moment you knew you wanted to be a creator.
    My first-grade teacher was a big believer in cultivating creativity. She had us write a poem in class in the first week of school. I know this sounds bizarre nowadays, because a lot of first graders don’t show up able to read, and expecting them to write a poem would be beyond typical expectations. But in the 1960s, it was quite normal for children to show up in kindergarten knowing how to read short sentences and write a few words, and by first grade to understand rhyming. Anyway, I wrote a two-stanza poem about a rainy day in the woods and a doe and fawn who come out when the rain is done. The teacher praised it effusively and the other kids gave me the stink eye. I was hooked.

    What is your biggest creative doubt?
    My biggest creative doubt lies in the urge to layer complexity into my fiction and poetry. I worry that I’ll appear pretentious with my vocabulary and allusions; I worry that my side quests into philosophy and sociology will come off as pedantic; I worry that my science background causes me to lose relatability by lapsing into jargon; I worry that my sex scenes will be seen as lascivious instead of exposing truths about the characters’ nature and personalities. But if I simplify my vocabulary, censor intellectual thoughts, keep my biological knowledge to myself, and shy away from intimate scenes, I feel like I’m producing insipid dumbed-down work. I go through a constant process of second-guessing myself. 

    What piece of creative advice have you received that sounded good, but was ultimately unhelpful to you?
    The most unhelpful piece of creative advice I’ve received is one that’s apparently treated as gospel in university creative writing courses: avoid the passive voice. Now, I’m not saying that my fiction isn’t improved by taking out a lot of passive constructions on the first editing pass; it is. But I’ve workshopped with writers who torture their prose to remove every single passive phrase that might possibly be found. 

    Sometimes a passive phrase is right and good and necessary. I will die on that hill!

    You’re stranded on a desert island - what three creative tools do you want with you?
    Being stranded on a desert island means there’s no electricity. So, I wouldn’t bring my Scribe tablet or my laptop, because they’d be useless after the first day or two, when the battery died. So: I’d want to bring a case of Moleskine Professional college-ruled notebooks, a box of original Bic fine-point ballpoint pens, and a copy of Roget’s Thesaurus. That’s really all you need. I use a Scribe to write poetry anyway, because handwriting simply taps into part of my brain that typing doesn’t. Revisions with cross-outs, margin notes, and brackets with arrows feel organic and personal. I’m always fascinated by images of famous premodern authors’ drafts and how much you can intuit about their creative process from the corrections they made.